The Dancing Atoms in Us

Remember it well when I opened the door of that room, the morning sunlight stabbed the darkness that spread all over the gloomy room.

The rays of sunlight radiating from a gap in clouds shined through the opened window blinds. Adjusting my eyes with that morning soft light in the room that has sat in the dark all through many nights, the very first thing that hit my eyes was not the furnitures, his artworks, or the burned wall, but the dancing atoms.

I decided to stay still, didn't want to move an inch for fear that I would happen to make them scattered, frightened or dead somehow. Standing there, staring at them made me realize how fragile our life is. After pausing a while, I took a deep breath swallowing atoms that were once part of stars that exploded billions of years ago and that were once witness the life of an unconcious stranger, yet I called friend, several nights ago.

After taking pictures of every corner of that troubled lonesome room, I came back to his safe place-nextdoor room ...thinking what brought me here; those dancing universal atoms, or unpredictable space & time of my life.

Today, I am sitting by myself under the roof of the sky made of million stars....thinking about how similar those atoms and these stars are. It could mean nothing at all for both of us or it could mean everything we have been looking for if we only knew how to read the meaning of that particular thing that happens and captures our heart.

Fortunately, that day those atoms were dancing in the air, reflecting in my third eye, and awakening my heart and soul.
I did not only see them with my eyes, but with my heart.....and it is the reason for me to become "more me" today.

And today I love him.